Well, I’ve been busy these days with school, trying to rethink how to be profitable with the farm, and not once have I stepped back from the madness to think about what I’m really trying to accomplish with school or my farming efforts. Actually, taking a step back was much more effort that I expected. I had to be honest with myself. I forced myself to acknowledge expectations of myself. What???!
Yup, I am a driven person that is generally competitive with myself. Now, I’m in a position of having to ask myself why am I doing what I do – am I altruistic and believe in unicorns and “made for TV movies” with happy endings? Or maybe, just maybe I’m afraid of being still or bored. Borrowing from the movie “City Slickers” Perhaps, I want to try everything at least once so at the end of my life I know that I did search for that “one thing” (thanks Curly). Here’s the YouTube in case you missed this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6r9iX39wUAg
I know what my “one thing” is – it has taken me decades to understand that I’ve been living it all along. I love being outdoors with the hot sun on my back, seeing the possibilities of what the land will bring forth, waving at my neighbors, helping others in need (I think I did see too many “made for TV movies”), and as goofy as it sounds I believe my one thing is: being thankful. I’m going to work on accepting my “one thing” because honestly, as an introvert, I want to be that extrovert that saves the day. I’m me – a farmer, daughter, mother, friend, and smiling all the time. But it is fitting that I make my commitments to farming, family, and being thankful at this time of the year. I am afterall a work in progress and have many more days of being “honest” with myself……..
I’m thankful for you and please know that “Dia de Accion de Gracias” is “Thanksgiving” all the time and everywhere.
On my commute home, in an effort to avoid my vocal commentary of some people’s lack of common sense, I began thinking about how do we avoid eating GMO’s (Genetically Modified Organisms)? Honestly, I was trying to figure out just how do I know that I’m eating GMO’s. When I got home (and less stressed because I did not provide my usual sarcastic “vocal commentary” of traffic) I googled (love this new verb!!) the subject.
Well, the best article I found was provided by Consumer Reports (here’s the link: http://www.consumerreports.org/cro/2014/10/where-gmos-hide-in-your-food/index.htm ) and it is very interesting or shocking to a neophyte like myself. I mean – what the heck?! This game of “we don’t have enough research available to determine if GMO’s are harmful” but “let’s sell it to people anyway” really is shameful on the part of government and business. There should be an honest effort by the companies feeding GMO’s to find out what they are shoving down our guts.
Okay, so on with the article…….. Consumer Reports did tests on over 80 processed foods that contained corn or soy. Why corn or soy? Well that because these are the two most widely used ingredients in a variety of foods: Kellogg’s, General Mills, Doritos……. Oh Doritos……why?!? And oh, baby formulas as well: Enfamil, Similac, Gerber. But what I didn’t know was that if something is labeled “Natural” doesn’t mean “Natural” because there are no standards on what that means! So in a nut shell (is it truly a nut or was it’s poppa a potato?) we just don’t really know what we are ingesting unless we grow it ourselves.
In Ecclesiastes 3 King James Version (KJV) the simple yet profound words: To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
There has been a loss in my life. One of my friends died way too soon. Young, beautiful, loving, and fun. She too was a farmer. She was also a daughter, friend, sister, cousin, and mother. Often we are defined by what we do for a living and to her honor she is remembered by the way she made people feel: she never made a person feel forgotten or lost in a crowd. She let you know just how important you were to her and she let you know just how important you are to the world. What an amazing gift – imparting self-worth.
Today was a beautiful day with the sun shining but yet I was feeling bleak: depressed. My loved ones whom I’ve lost over the years overtook my thoughts. Tears flowed down my cheek more than once as I was looking at the garden where all I saw were frozen, brown, masses of what were once vegetable plants. Then Ecclesiastes 3 came to mind and it didn’t give me any peace. I went on my business of gathering wood for the upcoming week.
I took a break from my paperwork later in the afternoon and returned to look at the garden. Can you imagine just wanting to stand and look at brown decaying plants? But I did because somehow I wanted it to give me peace. I don’t know how long I stood there just staring. In my scanning the garden I spotted a patch of green hidden under a clump of brown. I cleared the plant and there were 3 small tomatoes attached to this green plant. Suddenly I snatched those 3 ripening tomatoes and the words came to me:
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
I had to pluck those tomatoes. It was their time and without hesitation I accepted this fact. Now I need to become real with myself and accept her death so I may mourn. I pray at this moment that you have a bright and blessed week and the challenges you face be overshadowed by your amazing gifts…
Yikes, it’s finally cold here in New Mexico. The weather outside is cold, windy, overcast, and to some yucky. This morning at five a.m. I initially thought “geez (actually substitute a bit of profanity here) why can’t the chickens learn to feed themselves??!!” “UGH!” But I trudged onward and fed not only the chickens but the rabbits and dogs as well. But after a few minutes of being out in the cold air and soft wind, I felt energetic. So, what to do in yucky weather (not an approved National Weather Service term by the way).
I decided that since it was quiet outside for the exception of the amazing cranes gracing the air space, I would plan for the spring. So, composting will be spread in December, my seed order will be placed in December , the trees will be pruned in January, cabbage seeds will be spread in February (and probably again in March), plant grape seedlings in March, indoor seedlings in March and April. Looking out my office window it is indeed gloomy weather; however, in my mind: it is glorious and brimming with flowers and herbs – oh, pruned trees (can’t forget that….!)!!!! At this very moment: it is raining!!! Yay! Yesterday we planted a bit of winter wheat and so this is amazingly cool!!! Okay, ten seconds later it stopped (this is New Mexico after all….) I’m back with you – tangented out but I’m back…… I’m so happy for the opportunity to enjoy this gloomy day and share my random madness with you. You are a blessing!